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And so my work began. With a four year old son ( who is now seven, I am blessed to be his dad ), with my wife who never understood anything of what I was doing, with my parents who were concerned as to what this guy is upto ( remember I was working for top Fortune 500 companies ) I began my journey into this world of thoughts.

My thoughts were my company. Good, bad, ugly, dead, weird thoughts became my closest friends. I would sit with them talk to them sometimes they would be harsh sometimes good. I was like a kid who wanted to see what actually happened inside of me. Many times I got hurt and few times comforted but I carried on with the heart of a lion. I had no choice you see I had to make headway, discover a beautiful island in the midst of this desert storm.. My thoughts would take me for a ride they would fool me on most occasions but I braved the storm. I was not too concerned about my failures about my thoughts fooling me for I figured out that it is much better that my own thoughts fool me than to be fooled by life.. There was work to be done a battle to be won. I had only one thing in my mind to get in touch with the life force, the vibrant energy which the great masters speak about.